As summer progresses, so does summer fun. It is easy to become wrapped up in it. Fun with your friends everyday. Yes. What could possibly be better? It is good, no doubt. Something is left behind. I'm having fun, fully knowing God is missing out, because I'm not bringing him. He is the uninvited guest. I'm thinking I might actually be the one missing out. He has so much for us, just waiting. Waiting for us to say you can give me everything you have for me. I love you, finally, like I should, and the world doesn't matter. Well, I don't know how to love Him like that, but the thought counts. If you are trying, he sees that. I tried to play the of hackysack for years. Or at least a long time. I'm still not good at it, but since I have kept trying, I have gotten slightly better. If I didn't try, I would suck even more at it than I do now.
I'm not trying to love God crazily though. I'm content in the worst way. I like it here, and my conservation of energy likes to put forth the least effort possible to makes things better if they are already good. A long time ago, a saying came forth, and was somewhat forgotten. It was If problems are happening, you are doing something right. I am playing soccer. I want the ball. I will do whatever I can to stop the other team from getting the ball. From scoring. If they aren't doing anything, why attack them? I would attack the ones who are trying to score. Who are doing what they are supposed to. So then, If I were furthering God's kingdom, and acting as a child of God should, I would be the one big baddie #1 would try to take out. Distract. Lead astray. That would be better, because if I were doing what I was supposed to, that would help other people. They would follow. If I started falling, they might follow me there too.
What would Jesus do seems like a ridiculous saying. I was walking home, thinking about how to come back to where I should be. Well, maybe I could just apply this saying in all situations. But Jesus did some things that would be looked badly on if I followed that. Turning water into wine. He is at a big wedding. They ran out of wine. He made more. And he didn't drink any? That is silly. He hung out with prostitutes. He hung out with the 'bad crowd'. Sure, I guess we are called to do what Jesus did. However, I don't think the what matters as much as the why. Why would Jesus do it? Because the people who should have been weren't. So, who won't the church reach out to? That question might require digging. We've become a tolerant society. Tolerant of everything. I disagree with that idea, or at least the running definition of tolerant. The church won't necessarily spill all their secrets out whenever someone asks. What kind of secrets would those be? It seems like it was more doable back then. There was a plan. Retrospect is 20/20. There is a plan?
Censorship is a funny thing too. Jesus did some shady stuff, if you didn't know his motives. But, you can't go telling kids that Jesus did all that stuff, can you? Should He be painted all soft and sanitized? Maybe we teach kids incorrectly. But, they shouldn't be exposed to everything while young. They are just kids. They are just citizens. They wouldn't understand the problems that come up. Why this needs to happen. Why it had to be the way it did. Some things are better left untouched. But why? What if we tried to run something with no censorship? And then, what is the difference between that and privacy?
I'm thinking I'm probably not a very good leader right now. I shouldn't be leading a spy cell. You are supposed to lead them to God, and you can't lead them somewhere that you aren't going. I want to, but . I haven't been able to lead worship for a while. It is probably just circumstantial, however, I might attribute that to my current state. Recently, the youth group went to the Mustard Seed to help them out. They are a group that helps the homeless in Victoria. A verse was read. 'For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.' Then the righteous will answer him, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or needing clothes and clothe you? When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit you? The King will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me.' Well, I sort of ignored them in general. I ignored the least of them, so then I am ignoring God? Is that how it works?
What are leaders though? I guess they are supposed to be perfect role models, ideally. But I'm not. Maybe I don't need to be though. Maybe I can just let them walk with me. Accountability. Change starts with individuals. We can walk together, loving God more and more.
We can try again. Start clean and refreshed. It doesn't have to be the same. We've been washed, right? Good old Christianese. But we are new. Different.
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